Michelle

Went out to a youth dentention center last night. We help hold a Bible study on Wednesday nights. Last night was going to be different. Two girls had birthday's so we had a fellowship night. One of the young girls in the group, Michelle just had a Job experience. On Monday she lost her 4 month old son, 2 month old cousin, sister and grandma in a house fire. A group leader told me that all of those people had visted her just a couple of days before and now they are gone.


We had a group of 15 or so on one side of the room having a great fellowship. Michelle on the other side in the deepest mourning anyone could imagine. What a contrast. My body was on the fellowship side but my mind and heart were on the other side with Michelle. I know many in the group felt the same way. But we did not want to cross that line, that barrier that she had put up. She wanted to be alone and understandibly so.


What could I have said anyway? God loves you and has a wonderful plan for your life? Could I have taken her through the ten commandments and shown her what a sinner she was? Sometimes my theology just goes out the door. I don't get it.


But the good thing is this. I don't have to get "it". HE has it. He has me. He has Michelle. Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him......may He show Himself faithful in Michelle's life, like He has in mine. May she come to know His love, His heart, His Son. May no one offer her some proof text, some perfectly laid out theological lesson to explain the unexplainable God. May no one offer her God in a box. He just doesn't fit. I think I need to just weep with those who weep.